grown-up (adj): 1. not childish or immature 2. of, for, or characteristic of adults.ie: insisted on wearing grown-up clothes. grown-up (noun): adult.
(according to miriam-webster)
there are perils. adulthood is full of them. frequently searching, searching, looking for sense, seeking our meaning, evaluating ourselves, measuring, bettering, struggling, comparing, falling short. so many opportunities for falling short.
i suppose that life is somewhat like an experiment. but by the time you get to writing the lab report, it is unclear what the hypothesis was; there have been so many tangents the original purpose is muddied by much emotional research. the sheer volume of subjective data falls under too many objective categories to make it all absolute, to make it all clear. adulthood: not childish – is a certain definition in the dictionary. adulthood: not childlike – is certainly a sad story.
“you are enough,” i’ve seen, written as quick success-signage, a succinct unembellished positive.
yet, the path is never really certain. it is fraught with all the dr.seuss-monsters imaginable. but in the midst of all that, in the vortex of all the searching and figuring out and listening and learning and choosing and getting lost and finding and hiding and being seen, standing still and watching a butterfly open and close its wings, tracking a caterpillar’s journey across a dirt path, tracing clouds in the sky, sharing a seesaw, chalking a driveway all take on exponential meaning. this moment. this hug. this breath.
lilah splashes in her blow-up pool, nestled in lush grass in the shade of graceful birch trees, in the warmth of a steamy summer day, surrounded by adoring parents, grandparents, friends. she is in her delight. a wise and untrapped seven-months old.
we each slow down and watch her hug the moment she is in. her day is full of these snippets of time, each a minute of her tiny life-so-far. unconcerned about the experiment of growing-up ahead, sweet lilah reflects back a universe of “you are enough” to us. if you look in her eyes, you will see what love is, what hope is, what living is.
someone said, “life is hard and then you die.” maybe that person was just too grown-up.
once i was just two feet high;
today i’m six feet tall.
but knowin’ who to listen to, is somethin’ else again.
words just whistle around my head,
like seasons in the wind.
they won’t let me look at the sky.
all I want to do is try to find myself;
come and let me look in your eyes.
the way they say to choose between the wise men and the fools.
i listened to the words they say;
i read what i should read.
i do whatever’s right to do,
try to be what i should be.
seems i’ve gotten lost on my way.
all i want to do is try to find myself;
where am i to take myself? there’s no place here to hide. where can i hide?
all i want to do is try to find myself.
come and let me look in your eyes.
come and let me look in your eyes
come and let me look in your eyes.
read DAVID’S thoughts this MERELY-A-THOUGHT MONDAY
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